Wish to be a doctor ?

Assalamualaikum

So just now I have read a book titled 'Diagnosis'. I know I'm a later type of person. Everybody else read the book even the second book, while me just JUST read the first one. I bought that book 3 months ago actually but my heart only open to read it just now. Hewhewhew.
Well, technically of course I want to 'kupas' about the book. Here is me a 18 years young (instead of old, I preferably use young so that I know I'm still young 🙆) girl who have a typical minded on doctors.

Not to say I hate doctors, just that yeah you know I only not into this medical thingy. I used to have a typical tought about doctors where they are always busy and have to face all kinds of human' attitude and lack of sleep. Kahkahkah. Tapi hampa jangan main main depa gaji besaq. Dugaan hidup pun besaq gak.

So basically the book give me a bigger frame of benefots being a doctor. I always want to do things that open my eyes about Allah swt's Greatness. So by being a doctor and meeting those who in needs in terms of health, is a good thing to see Allah's Greatness. Because there are diseases that we human cannot cure other than Allah's will to heal them. Besides, our Prophet Muhammad SAW said

Sabda Rasulullah SAW "Sesiapa yang menziarahi saudara seIslamnya yang sakit seolah-olah dia berada dalam Kharfah sehingga dia pulang" Baginda kemudian ditanya: "Wahai Rasulullah, apakah yang dimaksudkan dengan Kharfah itu ?" Rasulullah besabda, "Iaitu kebun syurga (yang penuh dengan buah buahan yang boleh dipetik pada bila bila masa)" (hadis riwayat Muslim)

"Tiada seorang pun yang menziarahi saudara seIslamnya yang sakit pada waktu pagi melainkan 70,000 malaikat mendoakannya untuk mendapat rahmat sehingga ke waktu petang. Sekiranya dia menziarahi saudaranya pada waktu petang, maka 70,000 malaikat mendoakannya untuk mendapat rahmat Allah sehingga ke waktu pagi. Dia juga akan mendapat nikmat berupa buah-buahan syurga yang boleh dioetik pada bila-bila masa." (Hadis riwayat At-Tirmizi)              (Taken from Diagnosis, pg 9-10)

 Therefore, lets support those who wish to pursue doctors. And for doctors to-be and doctors out there, may all your efforts and hardship pay off in this world and hereafter.

My mom used to wish I'll be a doctor. But cant help that I really dont have any criteria to be a doctor. Mana taknya weh, tengok orang nak kena bedah pun dah nak tercabut jantung, ini kalau cek yang membedah. Mahu cek yang 'jalan' dulu. Kahkahkah.

Aanyways, no matter what we do, niatkan kerana Allah. Inshaa Allah, dipermudahkan 😌

Thank you,
Assalamualaikum !

P/s: Next week final woi. Kejung otot perut menahan debor. Harap dipermudah. Huhuhu

Its friday dude

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, we meet again.

Nothing to say today. Just a review of how my university life so far. Alhamdulillah, I've done with my first semester of university. I bet none of you know where I'm studying. Well, unless if you meet me in my every day life. Currently, I'm in Universiti Tun Abdul Razak or known as UNIRAZAK. Most people get confused between UNIRAZAK and UNITAR. Unirazak is the one that in the heart of Kuala Lumpur whereas Unitar is the one at Kelana Jaya. We are different thou. Of course I would say my place is better 🙆

Basically, to be part of razakian students was totally not my choice. It was my parents' decision. My one and only choice was IIUM. Yes, I wanted to be a law student of IIUM. Out of 8 choices in UPU, 5 of them was IIUM. See, how eager I was to be part of IIUM. Unfortunately, Allah knows the best. None of my lists accepted. I was rejected by UPU. *crying at the corner of the wall* It was a hard time for me because I really want IIUM. Then my mom said "Susah susah sangat masuk unirazak jelah. Ibu bayar. Takpe, tapi kena janji kena belajar betul betul. Untuk dapat scholarship masa degree nanti." Yeah, basically, it was an order hahahah. Of course I wasnt agree at the first time. I refused to follow what my mom said. By that time I was in the border line of quit my part time job. It took two weeks of depressions. Then after all the struggles and after all my stubborns, I finally lowered down my ego after my dad with full of loves, he listed the benefits of pursuing taxation. Ohh I forgot to tell you that I will pursue bachelor of taxation once my foundation is done.

So yeah that is how I end up here. Of course when you have no heart on something, it will be hard. Thats how I felt during the orientation week. Only Allah knows how much I dislike it ! But then after awhile, alhamdulillah. I know that this is my rezeki. Although the surrounding is not what I wish it to be, but Alhamdulillah, those people here are very nice to me. Things that I love the most here is my first semster subjects. I only learn English subjects. Ermm not I, but we. Seriously bro, we only learn English subjects; Listening and Speaking skills, Reading skills, Writing skills and Grammar. Nak muntah gak la belajar english je. For three months ! Alhamdulillah, my three months here finally over. Yeayyy ! Next week is study leave and week after is my examination week. Pray that I can answer the question well 😌 I'm nervous for the Speaking exam. I'm not that fluent when it comes to talk. Because I think too much on my grammar and vocabulary. And I dont have a confidence to talk in English as I rarely talk in English. If you guys curious about how we do our exam , its just the same like how you do for your muet exam. Exactly the same. Listening; you have to listen to an audio and write the answer based on the audio. Speaking; you have to sit in 4 people a group with an examiner, then talk la. Hahahha. As for reading, writing and grammar, just how we always do during school exam but the papers are seperated.

The conclusion is sometimes when we feel like we dont deserve it, but it still comes. That is where we need to close our eyes and accept the fate that it is meant for us. So I guess that is for now, till we meet again.

Assalamualaikum 😚

Wake Up Call !

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahhi wabarakatuh

Yes, its me ! I'm back, guys !
I dont know if there are anybody who still read this blog after so many months of rest 😂😂

The reason why I'm back is because I need something that I can spill my feelings to. Sound sad aint ? Hahah Well, it is. I was scrolling my gallery photos in the phone. Then suddenly I found a photo of me wearing niqab. It was not a real niqab. Its a shawl actually, but I turn it into a fashionable niqab. Honestly, I dont know how I can be that creative tho. Yeah that photo of me reminds me about those time where I feel I'm a muslim. Well, I'm still and forever a proud muslim. Its just that those times were the time I felt my Imaan at the level of I felt I'm closed to Allah SWT. And I miss those times. I miss those time during my life in MRSM Pengkalan Hulu. I miss the Islamic life. Now, I'm no longer there. Now I'm in a private university in Malaysia. When I said private university, you know how the lifestyle is. There are no rules on wearing head scarf, no rules on relationship between man and woman, no rules on solat berjemaah. And none of them care to advice each other on the things that make us closer to Islam. Well, there are a few number of seniors who seems to look like alim, but they are seniors. I'm shy to approach them 👉👈 I've been so long not listen to tazkirah or any other Islamic talk nor dicussion. And I miss it. I hope one day I will find a friend whose from the same university with that can hold my hands and say"I'll be by your side in seek Allah's blessings. We will find those ceramah and tazkirah together" At the very least of my hope.

Betul la orang kata, kawan memang senang nak cari, tapi bukan sahabat. Dear readers, help me to pray for my heart strengthness to show to the world that I am not the same as other girl who loves this world more than their life in hereafter. I want to be a good muslimah. A good servant of Allah. And a good followers of Prophet Muhammad PBUH. I want to get up. I want to fulfill what I wished to be before I see the real world today. Inshaa Allah 😌

With that, I thank you.
Assalamualaikum.

P/s: Inshaa Allah, I will frequently update my blog again. 😂 I will not let this blog rest more than a month. Sorry, dear bloggie for dumping you without any notice 😂